“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us.”
1 John 4: 18-19

I became a Christian before I knew the absolute truth of God’s love for me. Even as a young girl, I was tormented with feelings of shame and believing that God was mad at me. This didn’t come from my parents or others judging me, it came from within. I had accepted Christ as my Savior and had been baptized. I knew on some level that God loved me, but my heart wasn’t sure what that meant.

I tried believing that God loved me. I tried pushing back the fear and doubt by remembering what God said in the Bible. But still the fear of being rejected remained.

But I kept leaning into God’s love even through my fears and doubts. And one day, God leaned back. I was doing chores at home and simply began softly humming “Jesus Loves Me” under my breath.

“Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong. They are weak but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. The Bible tells me so.”

The third or fourth time through I stopped in my tracks. I was held frozen in place as revelation bloomed. I knew the truth. Not because the Bible told me so, but because God’s Spirit told me so. A light blazed straight into my soul filling me with a perfect love I had never experienced before. A laser beam of love shot through my entire body and filled me with a blinding white light I could see and feel! My heart leaped with the joy of absolute knowledge of God’s love!

Jesus loves me!!! What freedom! What joy! What truth!

God wasn’t mad at me. He wasn’t disappointed or angry. He didn’t look at me and see the girl who failed. He looked and saw the daughter He loved! This moment became an anchor, a cornerstone, and a weapon the devil could not overcome.

Those dark thoughts that kept me hiding in fear of the wrath of God were attacks from the devil. Satan doesn’t want us to know the strength of God’s love personally. We know that God loves the world. We can accept that He loves people as a whole. But we get hung up when we consider that He loves each individual (that’s YOU). If he can keep us from embracing the truth of God’s love, then he can keep us hiding. And as long as we’re hiding, we’re not posing a threat to his plans.

Once God’s love shifted from an idea I read about in the Bible to a truth I felt in my soul, I never again doubted God’s love for me. It became personal, not corporate. In that moment, chains were broken, and I experienced total joy and freedom from the fear and shame that kept me from embracing God’s love.

I have messed up plenty of times since then. Sometimes in really big ways. I’ve broken promises to God. I’ve let Him down. I’ve hurt others. I’ve run away. But I’ve never doubted that Jesus loved me through it all.

And because I knew He loved me, I was able to return like the prodigal each time I walked away. And each time I returned, God wrapped me in His arms and celebrated over me.
I was able to embrace His forgiveness, turn to Him when I knew I’d hurt Him, and trust Him when I didn’t understand why the world was such a painful place to live.

Jesus invites you into that same relationship. Perfect love. Love more powerful than any wrong you can do. Love brighter than the darkest hour of your life. His perfect love casts out the fear and shame that makes you crawl into a corner and hide rather than run into the arms of your Father.

And this is why the devil will fight so hard to keep God’s love a general idea rather than a solid truth. He doesn’t want us to be free, he wants us bound. Free daughters of God who know the love of their Father will not become prey for the devil.

Sing, my fellow daughters. Sing “Jesus Loves Me” until you know it’s true. Not simply because the Bible tells you but because your soul knows it’s true. It begins with believing because God tells us He loves us in His Word. He showed us how much He loved us on the cross. But it changes your life when it lights up your soul and becomes a cornerstone of your identity.

When doubt, shame, or fear darken your doorstep, lean into God’s unfailing love. When loneliness overwhelms you remember that Jesus loves you more than you can imagine. Lean in and let His love light up your soul. May that laser beam of love chase out any doubt or fear that holds you captive.

Father, thank you for loving us. Thank you, Jesus, for showing us your unconditional love on the cross. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for filling us with Your presence and light. Help us to feel Your love as it explodes within us driving out fear and doubt. Thank you that we are Yours. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Daughter of God, you will find wholeness in Christ.

Michelle

One Response

  1. I love what you said. I sing this simple little song, Jesus Loves Me, a lot especially when I feel down or that I don’t feel God around me. It really does work.

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